Failure (Revisited and Recorded)
After interviewing season came to an end, and before the endgame of miserable waiting, there was the month in which I experienced failure and success. And, so, because I have an outlet for that this year, I recorded my thoughts about it.
However, what ended up being recorded was the second take at a second instance that was far removed from the one in which I felt completely raw and tired from recording so many times in the quiet of my room stressed from worry that my roommates would hear.* Somewhere near that first take, I wrote down some of my thoughts about failure.
1. Rejection and failure feel like the same thing to me.
2. Sometimes when I fail, I have to remind myself that I am still valuable and still smart.
3. Rejection easily spreads doubt or affirms the doubts I have, and it takes work to fight that.
4. Feedback, although really hard to hear, is one of the healthier ways to make a comeback.
5. Rationalization is lazy whereas staying humble and teachable is a harder road to go by.
I decided that it was nice to know that I'm getting used to failure, and, I'd like to think that getting used to it would include not having to deal with the self-inflicted aftermath, but every time it hurts just the same. As I said though, I'm going to count failures as success though, because, I think that even though it's not my favorite way to learn things, it's one of my fastest ways.
*It's ironic that I am more at ease with the internet seeing the final product and not my roommates having to listen to me record.
However, what ended up being recorded was the second take at a second instance that was far removed from the one in which I felt completely raw and tired from recording so many times in the quiet of my room stressed from worry that my roommates would hear.* Somewhere near that first take, I wrote down some of my thoughts about failure.
1. Rejection and failure feel like the same thing to me.
2. Sometimes when I fail, I have to remind myself that I am still valuable and still smart.
3. Rejection easily spreads doubt or affirms the doubts I have, and it takes work to fight that.
4. Feedback, although really hard to hear, is one of the healthier ways to make a comeback.
5. Rationalization is lazy whereas staying humble and teachable is a harder road to go by.
I decided that it was nice to know that I'm getting used to failure, and, I'd like to think that getting used to it would include not having to deal with the self-inflicted aftermath, but every time it hurts just the same. As I said though, I'm going to count failures as success though, because, I think that even though it's not my favorite way to learn things, it's one of my fastest ways.
*It's ironic that I am more at ease with the internet seeing the final product and not my roommates having to listen to me record.
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