Miscellany of 2014
Here is the part where I say out right that keeping a video blog gives me reason to not write anything here.
And where I admit that starting a new job leaves me feeling vulnerable about who reads this and censors a bit of what I am willing to say.
With my birthday last year, I knew that this year would feel and probably actually be, well, frenetic. 2014 was so full of big-life changes that I'm finally getting back into a stride that seems manageable for the upcoming year.
However, it is easily reported that each of September, October, and November were full of wonderful events and people:
The funniest part of professor life, is that people seem to think that I now have it all figured out and have "made it" or so they say. Although this is maybe true in some ways, it is definitely not true in so many others. I guess what I mean to say, is that this "new life" does not feel all that different to me yet. I'm still just doing my best, and that is really all that I can expect of myself in any circumstance. What will happen is yet to be determined, and I really can't change the outcome by worrying, so it's best to focus my efforts on the work that can be done. Basically, what I'm saying, is that professor life simply feels like a continuation of the habits and skills that I've been working on for years.
So even though it doesn't feel that different, I'm looking forward to the new year. This year has had too many transitions to feel like a year that I could really focus on growth. Being pulled in so many directions felt more like survival and I'm glad to be done with that feeling. I realize that in looking forward to a new year, the challenge is to be fully present in the events and activities that are happening now especially because I haven't experienced winter in the west for so long and December is such a delightful season, but 2014 just felt so uncontrollable, that I'm going to not be sad to see it end.
Here's hoping that I can get back to blogging again soon... in the meantime, if you miss me, feel free to visit my youtube channel (Say Hey, Doctor K) where Brady and I successfully* created and posted a video for every month of the year. I'm super good at keeping promises (see here). (I know, I know. Shameless plug. But every now and then, I say some good things there.)
*December is not up yet, granted. However, there are already 12 because of the October video split. Therefore, when all's said and done, we will have posted an extra. I hypothesize that Brady did that on purpose so that we'd exceed our expectations. Or because I was arguing for a hard and fast 4 minute rule that we gave up on in November. I've been super happy to have such a flexible and willing-to-experiment editor on board for the project.
And where I admit that starting a new job leaves me feeling vulnerable about who reads this and censors a bit of what I am willing to say.
With my birthday last year, I knew that this year would feel and probably actually be, well, frenetic. 2014 was so full of big-life changes that I'm finally getting back into a stride that seems manageable for the upcoming year.
However, it is easily reported that each of September, October, and November were full of wonderful events and people:
There is the cropshare I was a part of that I'll eventually write about because I documented most of it and have so much to say about it for me, the rough transition from city-life+nature to actually being in Utah and what it means to be in nature and how I am never quite ready to be outdoors, my participation in an intramural female faculty flag football team which was a highlight of my fall, the oh-so-scary world of tinder because there is so much to say there as a person who is not likely to use such a silly app and finally, a trip back to Boston and the resulting flight back to what finally feels like home.
The funniest part of professor life, is that people seem to think that I now have it all figured out and have "made it" or so they say. Although this is maybe true in some ways, it is definitely not true in so many others. I guess what I mean to say, is that this "new life" does not feel all that different to me yet. I'm still just doing my best, and that is really all that I can expect of myself in any circumstance. What will happen is yet to be determined, and I really can't change the outcome by worrying, so it's best to focus my efforts on the work that can be done. Basically, what I'm saying, is that professor life simply feels like a continuation of the habits and skills that I've been working on for years.
So even though it doesn't feel that different, I'm looking forward to the new year. This year has had too many transitions to feel like a year that I could really focus on growth. Being pulled in so many directions felt more like survival and I'm glad to be done with that feeling. I realize that in looking forward to a new year, the challenge is to be fully present in the events and activities that are happening now especially because I haven't experienced winter in the west for so long and December is such a delightful season, but 2014 just felt so uncontrollable, that I'm going to not be sad to see it end.
Here's hoping that I can get back to blogging again soon... in the meantime, if you miss me, feel free to visit my youtube channel (Say Hey, Doctor K) where Brady and I successfully* created and posted a video for every month of the year. I'm super good at keeping promises (see here). (I know, I know. Shameless plug. But every now and then, I say some good things there.)
*December is not up yet, granted. However, there are already 12 because of the October video split. Therefore, when all's said and done, we will have posted an extra. I hypothesize that Brady did that on purpose so that we'd exceed our expectations. Or because I was arguing for a hard and fast 4 minute rule that we gave up on in November. I've been super happy to have such a flexible and willing-to-experiment editor on board for the project.
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