Fear of things left untried: (import from elsewhere)

Why is it so hard for me to write a research proposal? I have never tried it, therefore how I am to know the outcome, or how to start.
As far as trying new things though, I think that part of me that knows that once I begin, or do it the first time, each succesive time will improve, isn't so confident. I don't know if this is just me, or others are sometimes immobilized by fear. Luckily, there comes a point where fear and I have a staring contest. Usually I win. Thus I have tried many things. I have failed at many things. But what have I learned from failure? To not fear and to recognize the outcome. 

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